HAD TO
From some odd distance
First time seeing you
I tried to say hello
But you're too shy to say it too
But slowly as the hours pass
And days span into months
I can find my comfort
It's all happening at once
And all of my sorrows seem to fade
And all of your hesitance has changed
Each day gone by
I saw the light growing in you
And all at once our hearts are one
And we’ve too much to lose
But slowly we will take our steps
To work around our faults
And soon our hearts will feel
That they were never there at all
And all of my sorrows are gone
And all of your love I have alone
One day at a time
We found a way to make it through
But distance will not make you fond
Just grow the doubts in you
So I had done
What I had thought
That I had had to do
And you would find another
Just to try to get you through
And all of my sorrows return
And I have found another bridge to burn
Gave it one more shot
Just to throw it all away
Maybe you'd still be around
If we hadn't tried to change
The past is past
And we were fools for thinking any less
But now I must move on
But I'm still wishing you the best
And all of my sorrows are gone
But now all the love I gave moved on
Moved on
Moved on
Moved on
©2020 Livia Rose Overton
He
He played god and I let myself believe him
and every time we touched I had to swear to keep it secret
he stole my home
he took my soul
he made life dull
and I love him for it
I'll tell my friends I hate his guts
just get them all to shut up
I'll say that we got in some fight
Just to stay home with him all night
I'll scream and cry and cut my hair
Convince my mother life's not fair
Despite how much they want him dead
I want him back home in my bed
He made a bed of thorns seem nice
his heart and hands were both cold as ice
the heat of the moment and heat at night
Made the cold so appealing
He works in the back of your mind
He’ll find a way to steal all your time
There's nothing better than his love
Except his lies
I'll tell my friends I hate his guts
just to get them all to shut up
I'll say that we got in some fight
just to stay home with him all night
I'll scream and cry and cut my hair
convince my mother life’s not fair
despite how much they want him dead
I want him back home in my bed
Darling, don’t you love me?
More than life is lonely
I'd sell my soul for you
What else would you do?
I'll tell my friends I hate your guts
Just to get them all to shut up
I'll say that we got in some fight
To stay home with you all night
I'll scream and cry and cut my hair
Convince my mother life’s not fair
Despite how much they want you dead
I want you back home in my bed
©2019 Livia Rose Overton
Guess Ur Right
I should have never bothered to grow up
Keeping secrets from my friends so they wouldn’t hate my guts
Scared that if you saw me you’d say you’d had enough
Well I guess that I was right and now I’ve caught onto their bluff
Sorry that I moved on sorry that I cared
Sorry that I’m drinking sorry that it makes you scared
Sorry that you’re angry hope you listen when I say
Sorry that I’m happy doesn’t matter anyway
Guess you’re right
I’ve been fuckin up
It’s alright
Cause I’m having fun
I lost everything that I had once held dear
All my insecurities are feeding all my fears
Thought that I had told you and I had made it clear
That I am not the person that I was when you were here
Sorry that I’m missing sorry that I left
Didn’t want to hurt you just thought this was for the best
Sorry that I disappeared I guess that I just thought
Your life would be better if my existence stopped
Guess you’re right
I’ve been fuckin up
It’s alright
Cause I’m
I’m sorry I’m choking I’m frozen got cold feet
I’m losing I’m angry I’m tired of changing
I’m lonely I’m only trying to become me
But I’m having fun
Can’t be right all the time
You can’t be right all the time
All of you can not be right all the time
But for now!
Guess you’re right
I’ve been fuckin up
It’s alright
Cause I’m
I’m sorry I’m choking I’m frozen got cold feet
I’m losing I’m angry I’m tired of changing
I’m lonely I’m only trying to become me
But I’m having fun
But I’m having fun
© 2020. Livia Rose Overton
Homesick
Don’t look too close
Or you’ll get so uncomfortable
Cause I’m so tired hiding everything
And pretending that I’m all good
Cause this life is getting hard
And I tried to move too far
And I will keep all of my memories
But back where I belong
I see now that I was never meant
To pack my things and leave
I have a bad case of being homesick
When I do anything
It’s always this reminds me
And that astounds me
And everything is so depressing
So promise me
You won’t erase your memories of me
Write me letters
Send me pictures when I go
Don’t forget me
Don’t regret the things we’ve done
I’ll be leaving soon
And you’ll be moving on
So finally my heart can beat
And I can feel at home
I never wanted anything more
Than to find a place that I could afford
And find a boy that I could adore
And get new friends who cared a little more
I never thought I would be sullen and wasted
And constantly in over my head
And hating what I did
And hating everything
I guess I never listen
And I guess I should have waited
I wish I never fell so far
I’m only me when I am faded
This is not what I wanted
This is not who I wanted to be
So let me go and please
Write me letters
Send me pictures when I go
Don’t forget me
Don’t regret the things we’ve done
I’ll be leaving soon
And you’ll be moving on
So finally my heart can beat
And I can feel at home
A city stripped of all you know
Doesn’t feel like home no more
So take all that I have for show
I won’t bother anyone
Somehow I thought when I was gone
I wouldn’t feel so alone
A city stripped of all you love
Doesn’t feel like home no more
Write me letters
Send me pictures when I go
Don’t forget me
Don’t regret the things we’ve done
I’ll be leaving soon
And you’ll be moving on
So finally my heart can beat
And I can feel at home
©2020. Livia Rose Overton